useless...

我开始讨厌我自己
讨厌自己总是不够坚强
为什么就是无法独立的把事情做好??

是我不够努力??还是我做得不够多??
为什么我就是不能比别人强?
我讨厌输的感觉..
我不想被别人看不出起....
我要证明给那些人看,不是因为年轻所以我做不来
所以勉强自己在别人面前假装坚强

我只不过想把所有事情做得很好~~
想做出让自己感到骄傲的成绩
就算牺牲了很多,付出很多
都不要紧..不要白费就好

我要我自己坚强 我想我能到
但是想做到跟能不能做到又是两回事
努力不代表成功
付出也不一定得到你要的成绩

现在我才发现....
不关我多努力..多用心..付出得再多
也都没有用..在别人心目中我就是那么的没用
就连自己也都觉得 I'm useless.......

其实也是因为他我才发现　自己原来是那么的没有用..
总是依赖他,他交代的事情我总是没有信心去做好
就连他在国外,我还是会问东问西
他今天sms 我跟我说:
"Everything is gd...Reckon we''ll have lots more to do when I return.If our stk is well replenish,i thk russia mkt can grow much more this yr.Just lv me mail if any problem la, u hav been handing well so far.Keep it up"

你总是鼓励我给我信心....每次都跟我分享你的成就....
但是你又知不知道，也是你让我失去信心....

你的成就只会给我带来压力，你的鼓励只会让我想的更多.....
因为你的鼓励我就会想自己是否真的做得那么好...

才发现.．自己有多依赖你.．
每一次有问题都是去找你..都是你教我然后帮我解决.．
每一次我受到挫折又是你在支持我.．
每一次我把事情做好都是因为你在背后帮我.．

我真的太依赖你了...所以当我想独立的时候...我就怎么失去信心
没有你..我做错事怎么办?？

为什么我总觉得你不太信任我....
为什么就因为你的不信任而让我觉得自己没用
是我想太多了吗？

我的眼泪有是因为你那不信任的眼神而流?？
还是因为我自己觉得自己没用而流?？

Thanks my Sweet heart
就只有你们会给我最真的关心还有鼓励
有你们这班朋友真的很好....

可不可以爱我

为什麽如此的安静

为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑

努力的我保持镇定

努力开拓话题

最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽

深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑

每一天无法不想你

连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你

*你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我

虽然我对自己没有一点的把握

别害怕我难过

告诉我你真实的感受

至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我

反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄

成全不是美德

拒绝也不是一种罪过*

**你能给我 快乐还是寂寞**

19.04.2009

Yea...yesterday was my 19th b'day...
How I celebrate ??
actualy nothing special ...bt i'm touch & hapi
Early in the morning , my sis & bro came to my room ..
and tat time I was sleeping...
Guess wat they did ?？
KNS...my sis came n kiss me ...pui pui pui...geli...
scared me!!I tot who rapes me !!haha
then they all sang birthday song for me ...
I'm so surprise and feel touching....

Afternoon, me & Ezan went to "Causeway Poit"
to having our luch at *Sakae Sushi*
Yummy ...Yummy....
2 of us keep on laught & laught & laught....Haha
after tat we watch the movie 17'again..

Then , Xiao Qing came to meet us at 8pm....
then we having our dinner at PIzza Hut....
then we went back around 11pm....
That's all for my 19th B'day

Ezan...thanks for your Sakae Sushi
& Xiao Qing ...thanks for your Pizza...

Night..I sign in to my FB...
and I saw some ting there...
he send me a birthday wishes ...
I'm so happi and feel touching when I saw he is writing sm ting on my wall
yah...he still remember tat's my birth..
For me..tat's is teh best gift...
Thanks....

A 1st birthdat at HLC

What special on this coming Sunday ?
Yea....That's my birthday...Heee
and my colleague have prepare a small party at our off today,
to celebrate my 19th birthday..hee
Thanks ya...
I'm realy suprise to hear that they have bought me cake..haha..
I thought they only delivery some foods then have our lunch together nia..
Mana tahu~~they have ordered my Favorite--Mc.d
Wooo~~I'm Loving it....
and they also bought me a cake with chocolate flavor
SOooo..we sang bithday song and blow cake at our meeting room
That's all for today...

bored bored bored

Hmm..Now already 2am liaw...
I have to wake up at 6am
and out for work at 7am
but now I'm still sit at here..

chating with my babe jiun..haha...
we are talking abt....secret!!

damn Sweat right??!!
bo bian la I too free d...Nothing to do

haha...Guess wat I'm doing now ??
I'm reading the Thailand ah gua 's blog..
OMG!!! she's rili look like ah guo lo...
hahahaha...Alys...don laught d...pleaszzz

NightzzZZ......

Terrible !!?

OMG!!!Mummy ah........
My exam is coming soooN
HOW??!! who can help me ??
and I was miss 2 lessons last week ..

OH no!!! now only i member that I still have 3 assignment not done yet...
HAiz...how ah ??
LAzy !! Tired !!
Yea....that's y I never done my work...
and it is also the reason I gave myself for 5 days holidays

During my 5days holidays at my Home town..
I'm sooOooo enjoy .... relax ... Happy ...
and I have forgot all my assignment and all my study
Costing account , Trading accout ,Depreciation ..
What else??!!all become rubbish and throw to TONG SAMPAH liao...

2moro I have 3 hours class some more leh!!
Wooo...Tired!! Lazy....siez de loh
and all my home work I still not yet done eh..haiZ
but i cant miss my class any more...
Mr.Dennis already 1week din't see my cutie face..
I know tat he sure miss me a lot...Heee..
So i tink he won't scold me if i never do his home work..
because I'm too cute d mah...Haha
Please la wake up loh...dont' think so much K......
He wont' scold you but he sure kill you lor...
SOooo..better finish all the home work before end of the day !!

Princess Crystal 19th birthday

Woo..just back from my lovely hometown..
ooOOoo..Tired lor..but happy la....
hahaha....sweat!!

Thursday, me and Lin went to BK to collect our sijil SPM
then we went to Station 1 to have our tea time and gossip there lo

Friday night, me,Lin,Yin & Vinn went to Berkali Corner
yam Cha and gossip there lo..
HaHA... eat my lovely "Roti SAlad" there...Yummy..
Aikkss..so sui ...send wrong pic to Vinn...
she sure laught on me la !! wat to do ??
Please la ..don post in ur blog...I will cry leh=="
then after tat we continue our meeting at Lin home

Saturday,we all went to "Full House" to celebrate Princess Crystal 19' Birthday...
1st I pick up the Alys at her house.Ya,this pig sleep late again...
Then all reached Lin home at 12 sm ting...
then sit in the car and wait the "da pai " Vinnie Khoo
Then we stard our Happy Journy to " The Cave"
SOoooooo Sweat....Guess wat happened??!
their business open by 5pm to 1am not 24 hours de loh..
then only we go to " Full House"
We taking our Lunch and also snap a lot of pic at there
and I become a model then they take photo for me ..Haha...
Yeah...I feel Happy and also a bit of sad...
anyway..thanks ya..my sweet heart!!
I feel a lot of Fun for " my advance birthday"



*Crystal , Esther , Vinnie , Hui Lin , Sze yin*
<the Friendship that never break>

Princess Crystal using her lunch......

*Princess & Vinnie*

* Crystal & Esther *

*Princess & Sze yiN*

*Crystal & Hui Lin*

*Princess Crystal*

*Esther*Alys*Crystal*